Last year (in the spring and summer of 2025) Yahweh would speak into my spirit and tell me to GET OFF THE COUCH and EXERCISE! Walk around! Be active! Take care of the ONLY BODY that I have!
And I would think, “Ok! Yes! I will… later today.”
Then later in the day I would think, “I will… tomorrow.”
And I MEANT it. Well, I thought that I meant it.
But I was DISOBEYING Yahweh.
And, I was lying to myself and to Yahweh.
Pennsylvania, USA
September 2026
22 But Samuel said, Does Yahweh have as much delight in ascent offerings and sacrifices As in hearkening to the voice of Yahweh? Behold, to hearken is better than sacrifice, To pay attention than the fat of rams. 23 For rebellion is like the sin of divination, Insubordination, like the lawlessness of teraphim. Because you rejected the command of Yahweh, He has also rejected you from being king over Israel.
Well, as many of you know, at the end of September 2025 I became tired of trying to help people to live holy and pure before Yahweh in obedience to the Bible, (and I was sinning and looking at and focusing on PEOPLE instead of keeping my eyes on YAHWEH alone), and I cried and spoke out loud, “I quit Father. I quit.” (Meaning I QUIT living FOR YAHWEH and I QUIT serving Yahweh.)
Well, within 24 hours of speaking these words out loud to Yahweh… the fingers on my left hand STOPPED WORKING!?!
I was SCARED.
Then, my left foot stopped working. Then my left leg.
And, because I was SO OVERWEIGHT, my husband could not help me, he could not lift me. So he finally called for help.
Yahweh had TOLD ME to exercise… but I did not think it was a big deal. I did not think that disobeying Yahweh was a big deal?!?
And 2-3 days after speaking the words “I QUIT” out loud up to heaven… I became paralyzed. 100% paralyzed.
Well, that “not a big deal” ended up with a bill charging me $135,000 in ambulance and doctor and hospital charges!?!
Now, Yahweh in HIS MERCY AND KINDNESS completely healed me! GLORIOUS! PRAISE YOU FATHER! THANK YOU! SO MIRACULOUS! ALL GLORY TO HIS HOLY NAME! HALLELUJAH! HALLELUJAH! HALLELUJAH!
You can read more about the whole account here, and watch the testimony video when my husband and I shared about Yahwehs GLORY in a spirit-filled church in Missouri in April 2025, simply click here: BeHealedToday.org
And, in addition to Yahweh COMPLETELY HEALING ME… He also, SO KINDLY gave me a reduction of the bill, HE granted me a $102,000 discount!!! MIRACULOUS! PRAISE YOU FATHER! BLESS YOU ABBA! THANK YOU!
(For I purposefully have no medical insurance, FOR YAHWEH is my insurance! AND HE HEALS ALL!)
And, if/when you read about Yahweh healing me… you will learn that I LEFT the hospital still COMPLETELY paralyzed on the entire left side of my body. And I told the nurses, “Yahweh/God is going to heal me! I am LEAVING here!” And I left the hospital, and turned to YAHWEH ALONE! AND HE MIRACULOUSLY HEALD ME!!
ALL GLORY TO HIS HOLY NAME!
Now, back to today, September 2026… so, a few days ago, I spent some time at a diner with a kind spirit-filled woman that I had met last fall.
Yahweh led me to share the following with her:
AGAIN, this summer (2026), Yahweh showed me to STOP OVEREATING, for it is a SIN!
Gluttony is a sin. (Read Proverbs 23:20-21, Philippians 3:19, 1 Corinthians 10:31)
Self-control is a fruit of the spirit. (Read Galatians 5:22-25)
It does NOT MATTER what others think, or do. It does NOT MATTER how many preachers and worship leaders and those who call themselves believers these days are overweight and frankly even OBESE!
GLUTTONY IS A SIN!
20 Do not be among wine carousers,
Among those who are gluttonous on flesh for themselves;
21 For the carouser and the gluttonous man shall become destitute,
And slumber shall clothe one in tatters.
18 …for many are walking, of whom I often told you, yet now am lamenting also as I tell it, who are enemies of the cross of Christ, 19 whose consummation is destruction, whose god is their bowels, and whose glory is in their shame, who to the terrestrial are disposed.
31 Then, whether you are eating or drinking, or anything you are doing, do all for the glory of God.
SELF-CONTROL IS A FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT!
22 Now the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 meekness, self-control: against such things there is no law. 24 Now those of Christ Jesus crucify the flesh together with its passions (path’os ~ EMOTIONS ~ CLKC), and lusts. 25 If we may be living in spirit, in spirit we may be observing the elements also.
28 A breached city where there is no wall,
Such is a man to whose spirit there is no restraint.
32 He who is slow to anger is better than a masterful man,
And he who rules over his spirit than one who seizes a city.
11 For the saving grace of God made its advent to all humanity, 12 training us that, disowning irreverence and worldly desires, we should be living sanely and justly and devoutly in the current eon, 13 anticipating that happy expectation, even the advent of the glory of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ, 14 Who gives Himself for us, that He should be redeeming us from all lawlessness and be cleansing for Himself a people to be about Him, zealous for ideal acts. 15 Speak of these things and entreat and expose with every injunction. Let no one slight you.
43 “And if your hand should ever be snaring you, strike it off. It is ideal for you to be entering into life maimed, rather than, having two hands, to come away into Gehenna, into the unextinguished fire 44 where their worm is not deceasing and the fire is not going out. 45 And if your foot should be snaring you, strike it off. For it is ideal for you to be entering into life maimed or lame, rather than, having two feet, to be cast into Gehenna, into the unextinguished fire, 46 where their worm is not deceasing and the fire is not going out. 47 And if your eye should be snaring you, cast it out. It is ideal for you to be entering into the kingdom of God one-eyed, rather than, having two eyes, to be cast into the Gehenna of fire, 48 where their worm is not deceasing and the fire is not going out.”
And the Bible says to recognize people BY THIER FRUIT!
15 “Take heed of those false prophets who are coming to you in the apparel of sheep, yet inside they are rapacious wolves.
16 “From their fruits you shall be recognizing them. Not from thorns are they culling grapes, nor from star thistles figs. 17 Thus every good tree ideal fruit is producing, yet the rotten tree noxious fruit is producing. 18 A good tree can not bear noxious fruit, neither is a rotten tree producing ideal fruit. 19 Every tree not producing ideal fruit is hewn down and cast into the fire. 20 Consequently, from their fruits you shall surely be recognizing them.”
One day, as I was eating, putting my fork from my plate into my mouth, Yahweh spoke into my spirit, “If I told you to stop eating RIGHT NOW, would you do it?”
Then the thought came to me, “Yahweh would NOT really ask me to do that!”
And I kept thinking about it, and I realized that my HONEST answer was, “No. No I would not stop eating IN THE MIDDLE of taking a bite of food to eat.”
All of these thoughts kept going through my mind.
And I FINALLY REALIZED that Yahweh is SERIOUS! And that HE WAS, right then, telling me to STOP OVER-EATING!
STOP TAMRA!
NOW! RIGHT NOW!
STOP!
Yahweh was actually, right then, telling me to PUT MY FORK DOWN… in the middle of the meal. In the middle of taking another bite to eat!
And, Yahweh brought to my mind the CONSEQUENCES of my disobedience and sin the last time He told me to DO something regarding my own health and taking care of my body… the ONLY body on this earth that I have!
And this time, I said, “YES FATHER, I WILL OBEY YOU!”
Plus, (and MOST importantly), my HEART felt bad, actually HORRIBLE, that I had disobeyed MY FATHER IN HEAVEN. I felt terrible that I had disobeyed Yahweh.
Not only feeling bad for consequences of sin…
BUT ACTUALLY FEELING TERRIBLE for sinning.
(There is a big difference.)
PRAISE YAHWEH for changing my heart, for my TRUE LOVE FOR HIM, for truly caring about YAHWEH, MY ABBA, FATHER!
THANK YOU FATHER!
THANK YOU FOR A SOFT HEART!
THANK YOU FOR OBEDIENCE TO YOU!!!!
ALL GLORY TO YOUR HOLY NAME!
HALLELUJAH!
So, 40 days ago today, on August 19th, 2026, I STOPPED putting sugar in my coffee (and I do NOT like the taste of coffee at all, but I believe the caffeine helps wake me up). And I STOPPED over-eating. And I STOPPED eating pizza and meat and bread and things that our bodies were NOT created to eat! (Read Genesis 2:15-16)
Also, I STOPPED going out to restaurants (for now, I thought, at least until I learn self-control).
My coffee tastes AWEFUL!
UTTERLY DISGUSTING.
But I let it be DISGUSTING! Because I SAID I would do not put sugar in my coffee any more! I TOLD YAHWEH THAT I WOULD STOP! I WOULD OBEY HIM!!!
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
Finally… integrity.
Self-control.
Now, in the first 10 days of having NO SUGAR and no more over-eating, during this time my husband and I had been arguing (another past sin of mine against Yahweh) and my husband was afterwards depressed and he was not speaking to me or to anyone. (So I had not told him that I was doing this, that I was not eating sugar or restaurant food for a while, in obedience to Yahweh.) And my husband got restaurant food to-go a few times, including chinese and pizza.
PIZZA USED TO BE MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOOD IN THE WORLD!!! FAVORITE! CHEESE! PEPPERONI! BACON! SAUSAGE!!! BREAD!!! DELICIOUS!
However, because I had DECIDED SO FIRMLY in my mind and heart to NOT EAT THIS STUFF ANY MORE (it is not even food… it is stuff), I did NOT struggle AT ALL when pizza was IN OUR RV! IN OUR HOUSE! IN OUR KITCHEN!
Even I was surprised!
And I was praying about it, and Father showed me that I had not struggled with it was because I HAD DECIDED.
I did not make the decision with resistance.
I did not make the decision begrudgingly.
I WAS TRULY DETERMINED TO OBEY YAHWEH AND THE BIBLE!
Again, I was NOT looking at others, or churches, or pastors, or worship leaders… I was looking at YAHWEH and THE BIBLE!
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
PRAISE YAHWEH!
HOLY IS EL SHADDAI!
And I was also DETERMINED to create NEW HABITS, to become a NEW CREATION… again, to truly be living in OBEDIENCE TO THE BIBLE!
17 So that, if anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation: the primitive passed by. Lo! there has come new!
Then, Yahweh showed me one day that for breakfast I am to eat at least 1/2 an apple… FIRST! Yes, first. BEFORE any other food.
When He first showed me this I resisted. I disagreed.
I was disobedient, and I sinned.
Again.
Forgive me Father.
Such evil. Such wickedness. Complete disobedience to YAHWEH above.
In the mornings, for breakfast, I would eat dry cherrios and hummus… ALL THE WHILE thinking about the 1/2 an apple that I was supposed to be eating. Then, finally, out of GUILT, I would eat 1/2 an apple, but I would eat the apple LAST.
This is NOT what Yahweh told me to do.
I sinned.
I was still COMPLETELY DISOBEDIENT TO YAHWEH!
22 But Samuel said, Does Yahweh have as much delight in ascent offerings and sacrifices As in hearkening to the voice of Yahweh? Behold, to hearken is better than sacrifice, To pay attention than the fat of rams. 23 For rebellion is like the sin of divination, Insubordination, like the lawlessness of teraphim. Because you rejected the command of Yahweh, He has also rejected you from being king over Israel.
Forgive me Father for sinning against You.
And, I knew that I was also fighting a HABIT in my life, for I have been a very habitual person, and I would eat the exact SAME thing every single morning.
BUT, PRAISE YAHWEH FOR HIS PATIENCE AND HELP… through my conscience!
Then, one morning I MADE MYSELF eat 1/2 an apple, and I MADE MYSELF eat the 1/2 an apple FIRST!
It was SHEER OBEDIENCE!
My mind resisted, but I FINALLY OBEYED!
But I did it.
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
And for DAYS I had to MAKE MYSELF obey Yahweh. I would eat 1/2 an apple FIRST… organic, fresh, raw fruit that Yahweh created to nourish our bodies!
THIS IS OBEDIENCE.
THIS IS SELF CONTROL.
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
PRAISE HIS GLORIOUS NAME!
HALLELUJAH!
60 I hurry and do not dally
To keep Your instructions.
38 “…for I have descended from heaven, not that I should be doing My will, but the will of Him Who sends Me.”
14 “If you should be loving Me, you will be keeping My precepts.”
22 But Samuel said, Does Yahweh have as much delight in ascent offerings and sacrifices As in hearkening to the voice of Yahweh? Behold, to hearken is better than sacrifice, To pay attention than the fat of rams.
33 In all the way which Yahweh your Elohim had enjoined on you, you shall walk that you may live, and it may be well with you, and you may prolong your days in the land that you shall tenant.
14 For whoever are bing led by Yahweh’s spirit, these are sons of Yahweh.
5 Now for this same thing also, employing all diligence, in your faith supply virtue, yet in virtue knowledge, 6 yet in knowledge self-control, yet in self-control endurance, yet in endurance devoutness, 7 yet in devoutness brotherly fondness, yet in brotherly fondness love. 8 For your possessing these and increasing is constituting you not idle nor yet unfruitful in the recognition of our Lord, Jesus Christ. 9 For he in whom these are not present is blind, closing his eyes, getting oblivious of the cleansing from the penalties of his sins of old.
7 …for the supervisor must be unimpeachable as an administrator of God, not given to self-gratification, not irritable, no toper, not quarrelsome, not avaricious; 8 but hospitable, fond of that which is good, sane, just, benign, self-controlled…
6 For which cause I am reminding you to be rekindling the gracious gift of God which is in you through the imposition of my hands, 7 for God gives us, not a spirit of timidity, but of power and of love and of sanity.
24 Are you not aware that those racing in a stadium are, indeed, all racing, yet one is obtaining the prize? Thus be racing that you may be grasping it. 25 Now every contender is controlling himself in all things; they, indeed, then, that they may be obtaining a corruptible wreath, yet we an incorruptible. 26 Now then, thus am I racing, not as dubious, thus am I boxing, not as punching the air, 27 but I am belaboring my body and leading it into slavery, lest somehow, when heralding to others, I myself may become disqualified.
28 A breached city where there is no wall,
Such is a man to whose spirit there is no restraint.
At the beginning of this year, when I would go grocery shopping, I would get a box of white cheddar crackers and eat them WHILE shopping! And I would buy fully loaded popcorn and other STUFF that is NOT FOOD!
Well, again, because I TRULY DECIDED TO STOP overeating and STOP eating things that are NOT FOOD… I stopped eating crackers also. And, I would not even crave these things any more. I told Yahweh and myself that I AM SERIOUS!
I decided and told myself that YAHWEH IS TRULY ON THE THRONE! Not my feelings. Not my emotions. Not my appetite. NO.
YAHWEH!
YAHWEH TRULY IS MY LORD AND KING!
No emotions. None.
24 Now those of Christ Jesus crucify the flesh together with its passions (path’os ~ EMOTIONS ~ CLKC), and lusts.
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
Now, I am still learning and training my body to NOT EAT VERY MUCH at one time. And, sometimes I do not want to STOP eating vegetables and nuts and hummus when Yahweh shows me to stop. So, I must KEEP TRAINING MYSLEF and KEEP REPENTING. And, I do let myself eat salsa and crunchy tortillas… but even those I am often finally beginning to eat less of. MIRACULOUS!
Just now, today, I ate organic tomato soup and a salad with spinach, tomato and mushroom. THAT IS ALL!!! THAT IS ALL THAT I ATE FOR LUNCH!
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
Now, I let myself eat any time that I am hungry… it is simply WHAT I eat and HOW MUCH I eat that I am changing.
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
Self-control!
It is a fruit of the spirit!
It is written!
22 Now the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 meekness, self-control: against such things there is no law. 24 Now those of Christ Jesus crucify the flesh together with its passions (path’os ~ EMOTIONS ~ CLKC), and lusts. 25 If we may be living in spirit, in spirit we may be observing the elements also.
32 He who is slow to anger is better than a masterful man,
And he who rules over his spirit than one who seizes a city.
12 Consequently, then, brethren, debtors are we, not to the flesh, to be living in accord with flesh, 13 for if you are living in accord with flesh, you are about to be dying. Yet if, in spirit, you are putting the practices of the body to death, you will be living. 14 For whoever are being led by God’s spirit, these are sons of God.
17 This, then, I am saying and attesting in the Lord: By no means are you still to be walking according as those of the nations also are walking, in the vanity of their mind, 18 their comprehension being darkened, being estranged from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the callousness of their hearts, 19 who, being past feeling, in greed give themselves up with wantonness to all uncleanness as a vocation.
20 Now you did not thus learn Christ, 21 since, surely, Him you hear, and by Him were taught (according as the truth is in Jesus), 22 to put off from you, as regards your former behavior, the old humanity which is corrupted in accord with its seductive desires, 23 yet to be rejuvenated in the spirit of your mind, 24 and to put on the new humanity which, in accord with God, is being created in righteousness and benignity of the truth. 25 Wherefore, putting off the false, let each be speaking the truth with his associate, for we are members of one another.
11 This, also, do, being aware of the era, that it is already the hour for us to be roused out of sleep, for now is our salvation nearer than when we believe. 12 The night progresses, yet the day is near. We, then, should be putting off the acts of darkness, yet should be putting on the implements of light. 13 As in the day, respectably, should we be walking, not in revelries and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and jealousy, 14 but put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and be making no provision for the lusts of the flesh.
Now I admit, I confess to you, that I ignored THIS SIN for years and years. But that does not make it right. It simply shows how disobedient and ignorant that I was, thinking that if I did not focus on it, then maybe Yahweh would not either.
Wrong.
And, when I shared all of this with the spirit-filled woman that I met, we were at a diner! Weeks before, when I first STOPPED putting sugar in my coffee, I felt in my spirit to NOT eat at a restaurant for 21 days. THEN on day 20 or 21, I felt Yahweh showing me to EXTEND IT to 40 days.
So I OBEYED HIM!
And, while speaking with this sister in Christ at the diner, I did not even notice the food that the woman ordered and ate. I drank coffee (with my own oat milk), and was TOTALLY FOCUSED on speaking about Yahweh and HIS MIRACULOUS WAYS!!!
8 Acclaim Yahweh! Call on His Name!
Make known His actions among the peoples!
9 Sing to Him! Make melody to Him!
Meditate on all His marvelous works!
10 Boast in His holy Name!
Let the heart of those seeking Yahweh rejoice!
11 Seek after Yahweh and His strength;
Seek His face continually.
12 Remember His marvelous works that He has done,
His miracles and the judgments of His mouth…
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!
HALLELUJAH!
Now, I share all of this with you, dear reader, to ENCOURAGE YOU to do what I did… be serious and MAKE A DECISION TO DO SOMETHING FOR YAHWEH! OBEY THE BIBLE! ALL OF THE BIBLE! (Not just what others do or what you may feel like doing…)
No disobedience.
No resistance.
No wishing you were not really doing this.
Let us live WHOLE-HEARTEDLY FOR YAHWEH!
Let us live HOLY BEFORE YAHWEH!
Let us truly live ACCORDING TO THE BIBLE!
26 So you will become holy to Me, for I, Yahweh, am holy, and I am separating you from the peoples to become Mine.
And let us all remember, ALL IS POSSIBLE WITH YAHWEH!
ALL!
26 …Jesus said to them, “With men this is impossible, yet with God all is possible.”
37 “…seeing that it will not be impossible with God to fulfill His every declaration.”
23 And Yahweh said to Moses: The hand of Yahweh, is it short? Now shall you see whether My word shall happen to you or not.
1 Behold, the hand of Yahweh is not too short to save,
And His ear is not too heavy to hear,
2 But rather your depravities have become separators
between you and your Elohim,
And your sins conceal His face from you,
from hearing you.
17 Alas, my Lord Yahweh! Behold, You Yourself made the heavens and the earth by Your great vigor and by Your outstretched arm; Nothing at all is too marvelous for You…
P.S. Oh yes, I would like to add here… a few months ago my husband and I realized and finally honestly admitted that we both NEEDED to work on our marriage and our kindness towards each other (or actually repent from our lack of kindness). And truly I needed to repent MORE THAN HIM in our marriage, I needed to be kind, selfless and giving towards him. (Yes he needed to repent also, but not nearly as much as me.) Yahweh led him to a Christian website with a LONG LIST of groups that meet throughout the USA and even around the world, as well as on-line. These groups would meet to purposefully speak about their progress in REPENTING OF THEIR OWN SINS!
17 Thenceforth begins Jesus to be heralding and saying, “Repent! for near is the kingdom of the heavens!”
32 “I have not come to call the just, but sinners, to repentance.”
17 “I am saying to you that thus there will be joy in heaven over one sinner repenting, more than over the ninety-nine just persons who have no need of repentance.”
30 “Indeed, then, condoning the times of ignorance, God is now charging mankind that all everywhere are to repent…”
13 He who covers his transgressions shall not prosper,
Yet he who confesses and forsakes them shall receive compassion.
Here is the link: https://newlife.com/groups/
These groups are for people recovering from and repenting from ANY SIN. This book that they read and go through and the questions in it help anyone and everyone with repenting from ANY sin! Any!
- People-pleasing.
- Fear.
- Over-eating.
- Pornography.
- Drugs.
- Alcohol.
- Etc. ANY SIN!
The book is called: THE LIFE RECOVERY WORKBOOK
I knew I needed help in my marriage (and in MYSELF to actually change and to REPENT of being selfish and unkind, etc), and so I looked at the book and then took action and ordered two copies, one for myself and one for my husband!
Here is a link to the book on Amazon, as well as a link directly to the the NEW LIFE website (where the book is for sale also):
When the books arrived (only days later from Amazon), I began to read the book. And, I also decided to begin to ANSWER the questions in the book (it is actually a workbook). The questions are serious and deep. And for about 3 days I shut down emotionally. My husband and I were already arguing and not speaking to each other on and off, on and off. And actually admitting that I WAS IN SIN overwhelmed me, and I shut down. I buried my head in the sand and slept a lot.
3 Yet Jonah rose to run away to Tarshish from before Yahweh, and went down to Joppa…
13 And there is not a creature which is not apparent in its sight. Now all is naked and bare to the eyes of Him to Whom we are accountable.
1 At which, a throng of ten thousand being assembled so as to be trampling one another, He begins to be saying to His disciples first, “Take heed to yourselves of the leaven of the Pharisees, which is hypocrisy. 2 Now nothing is covered up which shall not be revealed, and hidden which shall not be known, 3 because whatever you say in the darkness shall be heard in the light, and what you speak in the ear in the storerooms shall be heralded on the housetops.
23 Yet if you shall not do so, behold, you will have sinned against Yahweh; realize that your sin, it shall find you.
3 When I kept silent toward You, my bones became worn out
With my roaring the entire day.
4 For by day and night, Your hand was heavy upon me;
My freshness was turned into the droughts of summer.
5 My sin I am now acknowledging to You,
And my depravity I do not cover over.
I said, I shall confess against myself my transgressions to Yahweh,
And You, You lift away the depravity of my sin.
However, ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH, I was not able to “shut down” (or run and hide) for very long, for since I was little, and since serving my mentor 13 years ago (who was a daughter of TWO MARINE PARENTS), I am NOT able to do nothing, and I am NOT able to get depressed for very long. ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
THANK YOU FATHER!
PRAISE YAHWEH!
ALL GLORY TO HIS HOLY NAME!
2 I shall worship toward Your holy temple
And shall acclaim Your Name
For Your benignity and for Your faithfulness,
For You have magnified Your Name, Your promise, over all else.
19 And blessed be His glorious Name for the eon!
The entire earth shall be filled with His glory!
Amen and Amen.
9 Wherefore, also, God highly exalts Him, and graces Him with the name that is above every name, 10 that in the name of Jesus every knee should be bowing, celestial and terrestrial and subterranean, 11 and every tongue should be acclaiming that Jesus Christ is Lord, for the glory of God, the Father.
So, I started to be honest with myself. I started to humbly see and admit that I WAS IN SIN. Yahweh showed me how PRIDEFUL I WAS, and how much of a Pharisee I was.
SIN! SIN! SIN!
And I received the truth. (Well, I BEGAN to receive the truth.)
Then, a few weeks later, when I FINALLY became even more humble, and FINALLY admitted to the need for help and the need to obey the Bible and to confess my sins to others, I contacted a group leader of a women’s only group, and asked if I could please join them. She was so kind and welcoming and sent me the zoom link!
YAHWEH BLESS HER!
The first time that I was on the zoom call, I would not show my face on the camera, and I could not put my microphone on, for my husband was within ear-shot of me… and THE REASON that I joined the group was to REPENT of my sins towards my husband, and so I did NOT want him to hear me talk!
(While I had realized and admitted my sins of selfishness and unkindness and unforgiveness of my husband from the past in our marriage, I was NOT yet ready or humble enough to confess my sin to my husband and ask for his forgiveness. I was still hiding. And so I did NOT want him to hear me speak of my sins against him.)
Maturity? Not yet.
ONE STEP? YES!
PRAISE YAHWEH!
Now, in the first meeting, the kind group leader invited me to talk a few different times, and I was SO AFRAID to even be there that my body FROZE when she said my name. I did not even write a message in the chat to say that, “I cannot speak out loud today, but I will work out a way next time to speak out loud.”
I just froze in fear.
I am 49 years young… and I FROZE IN FEAR.
I did nothing.
I was so embarrassed for acting this way.
The other ladies in the group were showing their faces, and answering the deep and personal questions and confessing THEIR sins.
I was hiding.
PRAISE YAHWEH FOR HIS GRACE!
The kind leader sent me an email telling me that IF I wanted to be in the group, that I MUST share my own answers to the questions also. She said it was fine if I had to work up to this stage, but this is a participation group.
It took me a few days, (and again I wanted to RUN AWAY like Jonah)…
3 Yet Jonah rose to run away to Tarshish from before Yahweh, and went down to Joppa…
But I finally agreed (in my mind) to participate, for I KNEW that Yahweh had led me to THIS BIBLE-BASED WORKBOOK.
So, I mentally prepared myself to SPEAK and to SHARE TRUTH about what I was going through right then, in this present time in my life!
This was VERY scary for me.
VERY SCARY.
I am ok with sharing about the past. (Yahweh led me to write a book about the past and my own mistakes, and hardships and how HE HELPED ME to keep going.)
But almost NEVER EVER in my entire life had I EVER shared with people how I am REALLY and TRULY DOING in the present. (With only very few exceptions.)
AND PRAISE YAHWEH that HE gave me the strength to be real, to be honest, and to be OPEN and VULNERABLE… in the present! Now! Today!
13 For all am I strong in Him Who is invigorating me — Christ!
29 He is giving vigor to the faint,
And to one who is without virility (manly strength)
He is increasing staunchness (strong and loyal).
10 The Name of Yahweh is a strong tower;
The righteous one runs to it and is made impregnable.
Throughout the first meeting (and after it) I again considered quitting the group. I again wanted to RUN AND HIDE instead of being real and vulnerable. (And I knew that this was what I was feeling and fearing, for Yahweh showed me.)
And I prayed… and PRAISE YAHWEH HE gave me the strength to be in on the group call the next week. It took me a few weeks, and then I switched from dreading the group call… to looking FORWARD to the group call with these open and honest ladies!
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
HALLELUJAH!
AMEN!
This Bible-based workbook helped to CHANGE MY LIFE! (Because I was finally willing to look at myself honestly, and humbly.)
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!
HALLELUJAH! AMEN!
17 For Now the Lord is the spirit; yet where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
15 Through Him, then, we may be offering up the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of lips avowing His name.
3 Great is Yahweh, and praised exceedingly,
And as to His greatness there is no fathoming.
THANK YOU FATHER… within even two months Yahweh helped me to COMPLETELY CHANGE! (REPENT FROM MY SINS… and change. Truly change!)
PRAISE YAHWEH!
PRAISE HIS GLORIOUS NAME!
Our marriage has become TOTALLY different, because I finally repented and became totally different. Humble. Honest. Open. WILLING TO CHANGE… AND ACTUALLY CHANGING! PRAISE YAHWEH!
Yahweh showed me… I am FINALLY maturing!
It took MUCH work, effort, humility, being uncomfortable… but WITH YAHWEH’S HELP I am finally changing!
I have stopped blaming my husband (for everything), and I MYSELF REPENTED and apologized and had uncomfortable discussions with my husband that I had avoided and dreaded and spent MUCH TIME AND ENERGY trying to ignore and and run away from and bury.
With Yahweh’s help… and my eyes kept ON YAHWEH, I am repenting. (Not ONLY with words, but also with ACTIONS! Words, yes! AND ALSO ACTIONS! HALLELUJAH!)
ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH!
My husband also joined a group, and we both continue becoming sanctified on our walks with Yahweh, our serious dedication to beating our bodies into obedience to Christ, our serious goal to living pure and holy lives for Yahweh… true disciples. HELP US FATHER!
ALL GLORY TO EL SHADDAI!
24 Are you not aware that those racing in a stadium are, indeed, all racing, yet one is obtaining the prize? Thus be racing that you may be grasping it. 25 Now every contender is controlling himself in all things; they, indeed, then, that they may be obtaining a corruptible wreath, yet we an incorruptible. 26 Now then, thus am I racing, not as dubious, thus am I boxing, not as punching the air, 27 but I am belaboring my body and leading it into slavery, lest somehow, when heralding to others, I myself may become disqualified.
1 I am entreating you, then, brethren, by the pities of God, to present your bodies a sacrifice, living, holy, well pleasing to God, your logical divine service, 2 and not to be configured to this eon, but to be transformed by the renewing of your mind, for you to be testing what is the will of God, good and well pleasing and perfect.
15 Be not loving the world, neither that which is in the world. If ever anyone is loving the world, the love of the Father is not in him, 16 for everything that is in the world, the desire of the flesh, and the desire of the eyes, and the ostentation of living, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17 And the world is passing by, and its desire, yet he who is doing the will of God is remaining for the eon.
1 I am entreating you, then, I, the prisoner in the Lord, to walk worthily of the calling with which you were called, 2 with all humility and meekness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, 3 endeavoring to keep the unity of the spirit with the tie of peace…
Dear reader, I share all of this to encourage you to take a step (even a small step) TO TRUE FREEDOM IN CHRIST!
Yahweh BLESS YOU ALL!
17 Yahweh, your Elohim, is in your midst;
The Masterful One, He shall save.
He shall be elated over you with rejoicing;
He shall renew you in His love;
He shall exult over you with jubilant song.
24 And we may be considering one another to incite to love and ideal acts…
We share these testimonies to encourage and inspire you to speak to ONE person! Help ONE person! Tell ONE person today how much Yeshua LOVES THEM! ALL GLORY TO YAHWEH! HALLELUJAH!
Share in the comments below about ONE person whom you have spoken to… or share your commitment to speak to ONE person today! You could help change THEIR LIFE!!! And, you will be obeying Yahweh and His command to “love your neighbor as yourself” (read Matthew 22:39, Mark 12:31 and Leviticus 19:18)! Let us LOVE others enough to point to TRUE LIFE IN YAHWEH and to speak the TRUTH OF YAHWEH about the future… heaven and hell. Amen.
Dear reader, your commitment may inspire and help others also! Yahweh bless us all with His boldness and obedience to help others, to speak TRUTH and to spread His Word! HALLELUJAH! AMEN!
Meeting Yahweh's children!
The work with Yahweh begins... living in the motorhome!
See below for a few of the people
whom Yahweh had us meet and give HIS help to...
on our path:
Alabama ~ Alaska ~ Arizona ~ Arkansas ~ California ~ Colorado ~ Florida ~ Georgia ~ Idaho ~ Illinois ~ Indiana ~ Louisiana ~ Maryland ~ Mississippi ~ Missouri ~ Montana ~ Nebraska ~ Nevada ~ New Mexico ~ Ohio ~ Oklahoma ~ Oregon ~ Pennsylvania ~ South Carolina ~
South Dakota ~ Tennessee ~ Texas ~ Utah ~ Washington ~
West Virginia ~ Wyoming
To go to yet...
Connecticut ~Deleware ~ Hawaii ~ Iowa ~ Kansas ~ Kentucky ~ Maine ~ Massachusetts ~ Michigan ~ Minnesota ~ New Hampshire ~ New Jersey ~ New York ~ North Carolina ~ North Dakota ~ Rhode Island ~ Vermont ~ Virginia ~ Wisconsin
Start with one!
Let us speak to ONE person! At the grocery store! When filling up with gas! Pray with ONE person! Encourage ONE person! Begin with ONE! AMEN!
